i did a bad, bad thing

what the hell! this has been one bad food day. actually it started last night. i mentioned i was hungry, so i decided to have filling snack - i know, not the best option at 9pm. i made a peanut butter and banana sandwich out of two pancakes. the only good thing that came from that is that i wasn't hungry when i woke up.

i took the dogs for a walk at 7am, then my friend invited me over for coffee and offered me a bagel with strawberry cream cheese. how could i resist?! it was toasty and warm and gooey and delicious and oh so wrong :) i went to school at about 11 and was hungry when i got there, but i prepared, so i had a pear. then at about 1, the pear wore off, but i was still prepared so i had blackberry soy yogurt with strawberry hemp granola. it was excellent, it filled me up, fine - i was moving on from my early indiscretions. then, i went downhill. scratch that, i didn't just go down hill, i fell down hill, tumbling, ass over tea kettle (where does that phrase come from?), through thorns, grasping at weeds to slow myself down.

i had not one, not two, but three turkey (thats right, i had meat) rollups - tortilla, lettuce, tomato, cheese, turkey, cream cheese (i think). and (thats right, theres more), again lets count, not one, but two cookies. argh!

so, now im home. drinking a wine spritzer because it has been that kind of day. and im not hungry, but i know i have to plan, so i can head back to the top of the hill. i think i will have a big salad for dinner - eat up all the veggies in my fridge.

again, in full disclosure, the other day (i think yesterday) i had some homemade trail mix (dried cranberries, raw cashews, raw almonds, soy nuts) at about 10.

here is to a better day tomorrow - i cant let this define me or my progress. it was one day, not even one day, it was few hours. i can put it behind me and move up and on. starting now! i see dexter on dvd and a bubble bath in my near future. i see bike rides, flea markets, and yard sales in my saturday future :)